As I daydream about all the things my perfect version would do. I realized that I will be completely doomed if a better version of myself existed

"Living is going to be more painful than death. But do you still want to live?"

Change the "Me" before you wish to be "We".

but It's all faded now time faded it away...

Sometimes we bring grief for others while we are at our happiest.

Solitude is yearned when we have a bunch of company. But when we don't have that it becomes a lingering fear.